trying again
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anna_readingI'll try again.
These are what I wanted to write in the 'long ass post' that disappeared down the dark depth of cyberspace - I've put the entry behind access list so it won't clutter public space lol... but sorry for those I granted access to!
(Copypasted from note)
My (not-so) recent updates
Numbered because I like lists:
1.
I doubt anyone saw what I wrote on twitter, but I'll just write a little here.
That my laptop is busted
What actually happened: my bag snapped off and fell. As it turns out, laptop isn't completely busted.
It's cracked screen and frame held together by binder clips. Went to places to get a repair, and no one could. They said they have no spare parts. Bummer...
But well, the insides are still good, so yes, I'm still using the very same laptop I've been using for... four years? Five? Acer, I'm still loyal to this brand haha. Not to advertise or anything, but I'm most comfortable and most satisfied with this brand compared to others (mom, dad and sisters all use different brands each, and I've tried them all and still come back to my dear Acer). My notebook before this laptop is also Acer - had to switch to laptop because of a uni subject needing bigger screen :(
I was definitely in shock at the time, because for the twenty four hours after I discovered my laptop screen has a crack and that it interfered with the touch screen so much that I can't turn it on, I was going about my life as usual, smiling and joking around with my family............... and then I went back in my room and saw my laptop and bam, I cried. And my sisters all thought I was crying about something else.
But thankfully, I managed to turn off the touch screen. And now I'm using the laptop like normal.
Ugh, I'm going on and on again. Long story short, my laptop's hanging by a (few strands of) thread, maybe I need a new one, but until then, I'll still use this dear laptop of mine.
2.
On the subject of the long ass post that disappeared - it's browsers problem. After I wrote that super short post, I turn to twitter and posted these
Okay, so my baby, the ItaJump list. I have to edit it week by week. I'm no good with HTML, so I rely on rich text editor. And also Google Chrome, because I do almost everything on Google Chrome.
The reason it has to be the rich text is because I have all those numbers and colours and certain text sizes on the list that I cannot understand if I open HTML editor.
Currently when I try to edit on Chrome, it goes like this:
Rich text editor doesn't appear. HTML does.
So for the past few weeks, I edited the list using Firefox. Now, it's fine if I edit the entry quickly. My pet peeve for now is the links to the semi latest ItaJump subs where the fonts doesn't want to be the same colour as the previous links. I have no idea what I did wrong.
I just want the colours to be uniform, the text sizes to be what I want them to be, and the overall format to be like I want them to be.
My other problem is with Firefox browser that kept popping up the warning about some script not running. Firefox continues to be slow. And the long ass post I wrote disappeared when Firefox froze up and I had to force close it (the longer I let it be like that, my laptop will freeze entirely, not just Firefox).
Sorry for all these long stuff. I'm not really good with technology. I get by just enough.
3.
The Keito scandal. The long ass post was originally for me to say something about this issue. Though by now it's just a cold case not worth mentioning anymore.
But I still want to say what I originally want to say.
I mean what I said on twitter.
I know, so lame to answer with song lyrics, moreover Jump's lyrics, but that's what I really feel.
The issue exploded over twitter and other social medias and I see fans being hysterical about it. I understand, really. Hysterical people are not rational, I said this in an entry before (my rage over the reactions for FMA live action). Being hysterical and emotional over it, or over any issue really, means that you have feelings about it that wants to be heard. It's okay.
But when this issue (or any other issue) broke out and there are people that said "I'm not Keito's (or others) fan anymore", or talk bad about him, saying he's ugly and such... I just sigh.
It's okay. It's okay.
Because that's what they feel, not me. Also, like I said over and over again to myself. Focus on JUMP and not the fans. (If they can be called fans in the first place...? Sorry I said this.)
It's just, for as long as I have been in the fandom, a few times I want to quit fandom because of the ugly side of fans. All sorts of fans. Fans of only one member and bashed other members. Fans that bashed other fans. Fans that insisted on their opinion (of the boys, of general stuff) being the rightest one on the planet (they argue about it). Fans of OTP that didn't accept other fans' OTP and being very very vocal about it, insisting so much that the other OTP is wrong. Fans that bring other fans down. Fake fans that get to go to concerts just to flash hurtful things at the members. Extreme fans that JUMP and other Johnnys once addressed because of their overly stalker-ish behaviour (remember what happened to Ryuu-chan in 2009?).
Sigh. I'm tired. I understand, each person is different, with different genetic makeup, different grey matter, so how they act, how they think, are all in different ways. So I focus on JUMP. Not the fans.
What I feel: I love all of JUMP. I love them all to bits. And I am the kind of fan that accept whatever JUMP released. I'll say quietly that I don't like some things, but overall, I am happy with what the boys gave me (us). I like cutesy Chau#, I like badass Forever. I love JUMP being silly and I love JUMP being serious. And I love each member as they are, no matter what issue befalls them. I mean what I said. I'll stand by JUMP always... short of them disbanding or worse... but let's not go there.
I have to admit I am also easily influenced... so if there are any fans spreading false news, I might make the mistake of believing them. I've been in the fandom for awhile and still there are some things that are believable enough that I might take as true. But also, I've been in the fandom for awhile that now when I encounter negative things, I will try to be quiet about it. Negative things need not be spread.
Positive things do.
And focus on JUMP, not the fans. Especially not hysterical fans.
That aside, about Keito scandal, I am upset a little. No not at Keito. I'm upset about their privacy being compromised. That their trust is violated. Girl, you got the chance to be that close, too close, even, and then... what, stab them in the back? Take sneaky pictures while they're asleep? Laughing as you talk about doing it? Why didn't you take pictures while awake? Why is your face blacked out?
Like it isn't enough that we hogged their working lives and not letting them rest, wanting to see them backstage when they are rushing to change or to take a breath, and then you did that when they are during private time... I know they are public figures and idols and people want to see and see and see everything, but they are also human. You try to be in their shoes, see if you like it or not.
What next? Such a scary world we live in, but the scary one isn't the world, it's the people.
It's honestly no wonder that I am afraid of people. At this rate I'd rather be with ghosts... wait, no not really, ghosts were once people too.
I should be a cat lady then. Maybe Inoo-sama will talk to me if I'm lucky.
4.
About Best Album and Precious Girl/AYT single.
To The Top. To The Top! TO THE TOP!!! AAAAAAAAA TO THE TOP!!!
I think at least twice before I said how I love this song so much. And Shin-Gi-Tai! Tobira no Mukou!
So they do have clean recorded versions of these songs! Moreover Tobira no Mukou is the original one with Ryuu-chan!
Yeah... I'm okay now with Ryuu-chan. I wish the best for him with Zero. Did I say this before? Maybe I said it in my dreams.
But oh wow... now I really want Hyakka Ryouran and Switch. What other songs... ooh! NYC We Can Be Heroes!
I wonder too what songs did JUMP members voted themselves...
H.Our Time and I/O. Gosh they are so good...
Okay, Precious Girl. Something really scary happened when I first listened to the song. Don't worry, it's just me. I played the song... and it didn't register in my brain or something. All I heard, or I think I heard, is mush, a blur, like there is a huge filter in my ears. Like my brain refused to register it as a song. I don't know how to explain it. I didn't have the same problem with Are You There.
I was alarmed of course, so I put off listening to it for a bit.
It's happened before with other songs (not Jump), but rare, very rare. As in one in ten thousand songs maybe. I thought that, before, it's my ADHD acting up, because I know sometimes I tuned off things I'm not interested in, but this is the first time it happened with Jump song, so this is not about whether I'm interested on the subject or not. Maybe my brain is just tired at the time, who knows.
Anyway, it's okay now, I can hear PG perfectly.
5.
Fanfictions I'm reading right now...
I read almost all stuff tagged Zombie Apocalypse on AO3. My mind went overdrive with it. My sis number two insisted that those zombies that move very fast (i.e. World War Z) aren't zombies but rabies. According to her, zombies are slow.
Okay, collectively let's just say zombies. Undead, right? Get ready for an onslaught of questions: what about old granny zombie that wear dentures, will the infection spread? How is it so fast to turn (WWZ) or slow (Train to Busan)? One bite, and... it spreads in the bloodstream... is it? (how else does it spread then?) Generally spread through bite, so hypothetically if we behead the zombies without getting bitten we could stop the infection, could we? 7.5 billion people in the world, and if a million survived, that's how many zombies per one to behead? From what we know, the brain controls the body so that's why in many zombie stories if the zombie heads get blown off they don't move anymore i.e. stay dead... right? So basically, everything is just... the brain moving the body somehow? Virus or whatever it is controlling the brain controlling the body to move and bite? So if people who is paralysed from the neck down get turned into zombie, they won't be able to move? What about babies, they can't move unless picked up, if they get bitten, they'll just rot there or will we see weird zombie babies moving like crawling ghosts in scary movies? Sorry that was a gory thought ugh.
Halt. I cannot think about this too much. Modern zombie apocalypse stuff brought by fanfictions are just that, fanfics, so extensive those are nevertheless.
Still, some things I just want to know and ask a lot of whys.
Whys are dangerous.
Stop the whys.
(How did I come to that...?)
Stop, self, seriously.
Hey... Yamada plays zombie games, didn't he?
I bet he didn't ask these stupid questions.
6.
Reminders I wrote on ItaJump list. I'm sorry that it's so long and I sound so preachy. Maybe I'll change the wordings and shortening them later. Basically I'm just saying that people should follow the rules that subbers has laid out. For me, if I found any subbers that don't want their subs to be put on the list, I won't put them on the list. After all, it's a scary business, free subbing in fandom. Not exactly legal.
But not everyone understand Japanese. Me included. Like, after subs were out and I realise how utterly wrong my summary of an episode was? Complete *headdesk*. Utter *headdesk*. Mortification *headdesk*. Sigh.
Oh well. Just edit the list and move on.
Anyway, once again, shout out to the subbers. THANK YOU!!!
7.
Something I thought of when I wrote 03072007-03072017.
TGQ live action and Kindaichi Neo has a gap of seven years. If not for that gap, the actors for the villains could have been interchanged. Keroberos and Takato.
Well, based on the hairstyles.
If they were to resurrect Kindaichi again, I hope it'll be fifth generation instead... I love Narimiya's Takato so much (or I'm biased) but he's retired, and I love the combi of Narimiya's Takato with Yamada's Kindaichi.
8.
Kalafina. Hyakka Ryouran.
Gosh Kalafina outdid themselves again.
I'm biased. Yep.
But they're so good... they are definitely queens.
Or was that just me because I'm in the Kalafina fandom? It seems that when I introduce Kalafina to some people, they don't know about Kalafina. Maybe they just aren't that into Japanese stuff like me, never mind.
I don't listen to girl groups much. I'm just... if I like something then I like it, is that simple. And if I found something I like that is shareable on youtube, I'll share to twitter. Since I don't have many followers and have minimal interactions with other people anyway, it doesn't get spread too much and I can enjoy all by myself... let other people do the mass spread lol
Hyakka Ryouran... is epic.
And is the reason I found Ito Kashitaro's Hyakka Ryouran instead haha.
Will we ever get JUMP's Hyakka Ryouran?
Oh but I should be grateful to have their performances at all. I have three and I cut one of them into MP3 so I have a Hyakka Ryouran ringtone.
9.
Nah I have nothing. Just that with all these word vomit, I am not sure when next I would write like this. Could be tomorrow, could be next month, could be five years from now. Any time there is something I want to say, I'll write like this. In the meantime, short updates will be on twitter if anyone cares (probably not, I don't think I have anyone that sees this).
This is long, my goodness. Sorry if you aren't interested... but in my defence, this is my own space to talk, yes?
Oh, and I'll probably put this behind access list or private after awhile, when I feel embarrassed about what I wrote in here.
(I forgot pic credit... but all to Google images where I just type Takato Yoichi Neo + live action and Keroberos Tantei Gakuen + live action, exact URL forgotten already.)
These are what I wanted to write in the 'long ass post' that disappeared down the dark depth of cyberspace - I've put the entry behind access list so it won't clutter public space lol... but sorry for those I granted access to!
(Copypasted from note)
My (not-so) recent updates
Numbered because I like lists:
1.
I doubt anyone saw what I wrote on twitter, but I'll just write a little here.
That my laptop is busted
My laptop is finally completely busted.
I think I'm in shock.
What actually happened: my bag snapped off and fell. As it turns out, laptop isn't completely busted.
It's cracked screen and frame held together by binder clips. Went to places to get a repair, and no one could. They said they have no spare parts. Bummer...
But well, the insides are still good, so yes, I'm still using the very same laptop I've been using for... four years? Five? Acer, I'm still loyal to this brand haha. Not to advertise or anything, but I'm most comfortable and most satisfied with this brand compared to others (mom, dad and sisters all use different brands each, and I've tried them all and still come back to my dear Acer). My notebook before this laptop is also Acer - had to switch to laptop because of a uni subject needing bigger screen :(
I was definitely in shock at the time, because for the twenty four hours after I discovered my laptop screen has a crack and that it interfered with the touch screen so much that I can't turn it on, I was going about my life as usual, smiling and joking around with my family............... and then I went back in my room and saw my laptop and bam, I cried. And my sisters all thought I was crying about something else.
But thankfully, I managed to turn off the touch screen. And now I'm using the laptop like normal.
Ugh, I'm going on and on again. Long story short, my laptop's hanging by a (few strands of) thread, maybe I need a new one, but until then, I'll still use this dear laptop of mine.
2.
On the subject of the long ass post that disappeared - it's browsers problem. After I wrote that super short post, I turn to twitter and posted these
even if I want to rage about it, it is over n done with.
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) August 8, 2017
next time it's just copy n paste from somewhere instead.
if i even remember that.
so, now.
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) August 8, 2017
what browser won't incur my wrath?
Okay, so my baby, the ItaJump list. I have to edit it week by week. I'm no good with HTML, so I rely on rich text editor. And also Google Chrome, because I do almost everything on Google Chrome.
The reason it has to be the rich text is because I have all those numbers and colours and certain text sizes on the list that I cannot understand if I open HTML editor.
Currently when I try to edit on Chrome, it goes like this:
Rich text editor doesn't appear. HTML does.
So for the past few weeks, I edited the list using Firefox. Now, it's fine if I edit the entry quickly. My pet peeve for now is the links to the semi latest ItaJump subs where the fonts doesn't want to be the same colour as the previous links. I have no idea what I did wrong.
I... don't know why... the text colour won't be uniform?? Like... it's stubbornly remain the other colour just to mock me..?? aaargh 😫😫😫
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) August 5, 2017
I just want the colours to be uniform, the text sizes to be what I want them to be, and the overall format to be like I want them to be.
My other problem is with Firefox browser that kept popping up the warning about some script not running. Firefox continues to be slow. And the long ass post I wrote disappeared when Firefox froze up and I had to force close it (the longer I let it be like that, my laptop will freeze entirely, not just Firefox).
Sorry for all these long stuff. I'm not really good with technology. I get by just enough.
3.
The Keito scandal. The long ass post was originally for me to say something about this issue. Though by now it's just a cold case not worth mentioning anymore.
But I still want to say what I originally want to say.
I mean what I said on twitter.
Keito I know u'r a good guy and I'll still stand by you and HSJ, always.
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) August 7, 2017
Remember this?
うまくいかなくて立ち止ま るときは 無理に空を見上げなくていいから
僕の手を離さないで 君を連れてく
Answering Keitopinion: I am Very Very Happy with all of JUMP, along with the little things in life.
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) August 7, 2017
I know, so lame to answer with song lyrics, moreover Jump's lyrics, but that's what I really feel.
The issue exploded over twitter and other social medias and I see fans being hysterical about it. I understand, really. Hysterical people are not rational, I said this in an entry before (my rage over the reactions for FMA live action). Being hysterical and emotional over it, or over any issue really, means that you have feelings about it that wants to be heard. It's okay.
But when this issue (or any other issue) broke out and there are people that said "I'm not Keito's (or others) fan anymore", or talk bad about him, saying he's ugly and such... I just sigh.
It's okay. It's okay.
Because that's what they feel, not me. Also, like I said over and over again to myself. Focus on JUMP and not the fans. (If they can be called fans in the first place...? Sorry I said this.)
It's just, for as long as I have been in the fandom, a few times I want to quit fandom because of the ugly side of fans. All sorts of fans. Fans of only one member and bashed other members. Fans that bashed other fans. Fans that insisted on their opinion (of the boys, of general stuff) being the rightest one on the planet (they argue about it). Fans of OTP that didn't accept other fans' OTP and being very very vocal about it, insisting so much that the other OTP is wrong. Fans that bring other fans down. Fake fans that get to go to concerts just to flash hurtful things at the members. Extreme fans that JUMP and other Johnnys once addressed because of their overly stalker-ish behaviour (remember what happened to Ryuu-chan in 2009?).
Sigh. I'm tired. I understand, each person is different, with different genetic makeup, different grey matter, so how they act, how they think, are all in different ways. So I focus on JUMP. Not the fans.
What I feel: I love all of JUMP. I love them all to bits. And I am the kind of fan that accept whatever JUMP released. I'll say quietly that I don't like some things, but overall, I am happy with what the boys gave me (us). I like cutesy Chau#, I like badass Forever. I love JUMP being silly and I love JUMP being serious. And I love each member as they are, no matter what issue befalls them. I mean what I said. I'll stand by JUMP always... short of them disbanding or worse... but let's not go there.
I have to admit I am also easily influenced... so if there are any fans spreading false news, I might make the mistake of believing them. I've been in the fandom for awhile and still there are some things that are believable enough that I might take as true. But also, I've been in the fandom for awhile that now when I encounter negative things, I will try to be quiet about it. Negative things need not be spread.
Positive things do.
And focus on JUMP, not the fans. Especially not hysterical fans.
That aside, about Keito scandal, I am upset a little. No not at Keito. I'm upset about their privacy being compromised. That their trust is violated. Girl, you got the chance to be that close, too close, even, and then... what, stab them in the back? Take sneaky pictures while they're asleep? Laughing as you talk about doing it? Why didn't you take pictures while awake? Why is your face blacked out?
Like it isn't enough that we hogged their working lives and not letting them rest, wanting to see them backstage when they are rushing to change or to take a breath, and then you did that when they are during private time... I know they are public figures and idols and people want to see and see and see everything, but they are also human. You try to be in their shoes, see if you like it or not.
What next? Such a scary world we live in, but the scary one isn't the world, it's the people.
It's honestly no wonder that I am afraid of people. At this rate I'd rather be with ghosts... wait, no not really, ghosts were once people too.
I should be a cat lady then. Maybe Inoo-sama will talk to me if I'm lucky.
4.
About Best Album and Precious Girl/AYT single.
To The Top. To The Top! TO THE TOP!!! AAAAAAAAA TO THE TOP!!!
I think at least twice before I said how I love this song so much. And Shin-Gi-Tai! Tobira no Mukou!
So they do have clean recorded versions of these songs! Moreover Tobira no Mukou is the original one with Ryuu-chan!
Yeah... I'm okay now with Ryuu-chan. I wish the best for him with Zero. Did I say this before? Maybe I said it in my dreams.
But oh wow... now I really want Hyakka Ryouran and Switch. What other songs... ooh! NYC We Can Be Heroes!
I wonder too what songs did JUMP members voted themselves...
H.Our Time and I/O. Gosh they are so good...
Okay, Precious Girl. Something really scary happened when I first listened to the song. Don't worry, it's just me. I played the song... and it didn't register in my brain or something. All I heard, or I think I heard, is mush, a blur, like there is a huge filter in my ears. Like my brain refused to register it as a song. I don't know how to explain it. I didn't have the same problem with Are You There.
I was alarmed of course, so I put off listening to it for a bit.
It's happened before with other songs (not Jump), but rare, very rare. As in one in ten thousand songs maybe. I thought that, before, it's my ADHD acting up, because I know sometimes I tuned off things I'm not interested in, but this is the first time it happened with Jump song, so this is not about whether I'm interested on the subject or not. Maybe my brain is just tired at the time, who knows.
Anyway, it's okay now, I can hear PG perfectly.
5.
Fanfictions I'm reading right now...
I read almost all stuff tagged Zombie Apocalypse on AO3. My mind went overdrive with it. My sis number two insisted that those zombies that move very fast (i.e. World War Z) aren't zombies but rabies. According to her, zombies are slow.
Okay, collectively let's just say zombies. Undead, right? Get ready for an onslaught of questions: what about old granny zombie that wear dentures, will the infection spread? How is it so fast to turn (WWZ) or slow (Train to Busan)? One bite, and... it spreads in the bloodstream... is it? (how else does it spread then?) Generally spread through bite, so hypothetically if we behead the zombies without getting bitten we could stop the infection, could we? 7.5 billion people in the world, and if a million survived, that's how many zombies per one to behead? From what we know, the brain controls the body so that's why in many zombie stories if the zombie heads get blown off they don't move anymore i.e. stay dead... right? So basically, everything is just... the brain moving the body somehow? Virus or whatever it is controlling the brain controlling the body to move and bite? So if people who is paralysed from the neck down get turned into zombie, they won't be able to move? What about babies, they can't move unless picked up, if they get bitten, they'll just rot there or will we see weird zombie babies moving like crawling ghosts in scary movies? Sorry that was a gory thought ugh.
Halt. I cannot think about this too much. Modern zombie apocalypse stuff brought by fanfictions are just that, fanfics, so extensive those are nevertheless.
Still, some things I just want to know and ask a lot of whys.
Whys are dangerous.
Stop the whys.
(How did I come to that...?)
Stop, self, seriously.
Hey... Yamada plays zombie games, didn't he?
I bet he didn't ask these stupid questions.
6.
Reminders I wrote on ItaJump list. I'm sorry that it's so long and I sound so preachy. Maybe I'll change the wordings and shortening them later. Basically I'm just saying that people should follow the rules that subbers has laid out. For me, if I found any subbers that don't want their subs to be put on the list, I won't put them on the list. After all, it's a scary business, free subbing in fandom. Not exactly legal.
But not everyone understand Japanese. Me included. Like, after subs were out and I realise how utterly wrong my summary of an episode was? Complete *headdesk*. Utter *headdesk*. Mortification *headdesk*. Sigh.
Oh well. Just edit the list and move on.
Anyway, once again, shout out to the subbers. THANK YOU!!!
7.
Something I thought of when I wrote 03072007-03072017.
TGQ live action and Kindaichi Neo has a gap of seven years. If not for that gap, the actors for the villains could have been interchanged. Keroberos and Takato.
| Takato Yoichi | Keroberos |
 |  |
 |  |
Well, based on the hairstyles.
If they were to resurrect Kindaichi again, I hope it'll be fifth generation instead... I love Narimiya's Takato so much (or I'm biased) but he's retired, and I love the combi of Narimiya's Takato with Yamada's Kindaichi.
8.
Kalafina. Hyakka Ryouran.
Gosh Kalafina outdid themselves again.
Kalafina - Hyakka Ryouran Music Video https://t.co/MY1m7OyzBb via @YouTube
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) August 15, 2017
I'm biased. Yep.
But they're so good... they are definitely queens.
Or was that just me because I'm in the Kalafina fandom? It seems that when I introduce Kalafina to some people, they don't know about Kalafina. Maybe they just aren't that into Japanese stuff like me, never mind.
I don't listen to girl groups much. I'm just... if I like something then I like it, is that simple. And if I found something I like that is shareable on youtube, I'll share to twitter. Since I don't have many followers and have minimal interactions with other people anyway, it doesn't get spread too much and I can enjoy all by myself... let other people do the mass spread lol
Hyakka Ryouran... is epic.
And is the reason I found Ito Kashitaro's Hyakka Ryouran instead haha.
【Ito Kashitaro】Hyakka Ryouran - eng sub https://t.co/ghZsLwpYJo via @YouTube
— AReadReez (@reeznotes) July 19, 2017
Will we ever get JUMP's Hyakka Ryouran?
Oh but I should be grateful to have their performances at all. I have three and I cut one of them into MP3 so I have a Hyakka Ryouran ringtone.
9.
Nah I have nothing. Just that with all these word vomit, I am not sure when next I would write like this. Could be tomorrow, could be next month, could be five years from now. Any time there is something I want to say, I'll write like this. In the meantime, short updates will be on twitter if anyone cares (probably not, I don't think I have anyone that sees this).
This is long, my goodness. Sorry if you aren't interested... but in my defence, this is my own space to talk, yes?
Oh, and I'll probably put this behind access list or private after awhile, when I feel embarrassed about what I wrote in here.
(I forgot pic credit... but all to Google images where I just type Takato Yoichi Neo + live action and Keroberos Tantei Gakuen + live action, exact URL forgotten already.)
